Day 35

CD 35 and no sign of AF. I've had lots of CM for over a week now. Two weeks ago tomorrow I had b/w and my progesterone was .7.

I don't know what to think but optimism is again creeping back in.

If no AF by Monday, I'm testing.


God, please don't let my body hate me so much to fake me out this much.

Too Optimistic

I had posted a little while ago about spotting. Well, after about three days of really super light, brown spotting, it's gone.

This is a problem because now it has kindled hope for this cycle. I don't need that kind of hope. I don't need that "maybe I'm pregnant" thought that keeps sneaking into my head.

I never got a peak on my monitor, so I have no reason to expect that I ovulated at all this cycle, and yet a few days of spotting and I'm already wondering.

I need to squelch this feeling, because it will only lead to disappointment.




On a good note, last of blood work was drawn this morning (I think we're up to vial 14 now) and we have our diagnosis and treatment appointment on January 14th. Which means by February we should be on a medicated/medical intervention cycle.


2008 is our year...at least I certainly hope it is.

Update

Not much to say really, but I don't like going more than a few days without posting something.

DH's grandma's funeral is tomorrow morning. It's a graveside service...I've never been to one of those before, so I'm not sure how I will react.

It's seems kind of ironic that I am only a day or two away from ovulating but tomorrow we're putting someone to rest. It seems so cyclical. Someone passes on but someone else has the chance at starting new life (even if it is a small chance). What a kicker that would be...to get pregnant this cycle. It would almost seem like a gift to the family to help fill the recent void.

See, but now I'm getting too hopeful, which is always a bad sign.