Update

It has been awhile, and I do apologize for that. Things have been hectic.


Report cards were due, so there is always a big push to complete all of their writing proficiencies and grade them.

My mom's best friend has terminal brain cancer. They've give her at most six months to live. She's already at the point where she does not know who anyone is and can only say words over and over again. It's awful. She's only 37 with two little girls and a loving family. She's even a fellow TTTCer (she needed assistance with her second child). It's really tearing up my parents.

DH was sick with a bad cold, and now I'm just getting over one as well.

We are now digging ourselves out of the pile. We're content, just busy.

Better now

After two days of talking and crying, things are better.


I will live.


TTTC sister, I shall email you tomorrow.

...

I am not myself anymore. I am an angry, bitter, quick to lash out, depressed human being...and it scares the crap out of me. I have no one to talk to. I want to be happy again. I want to be me again.

Help.

Not Actively Trying

but not preventing...I think I'm okay with that. I think we both needed a little break.

DH clomid protocol ends in April. Then we'll see.

No IVF Coverage

Not that it's a surprise, but we don't have IVF coverage. It just sucks that we have to worry about paying to HAVE a child. I still don't understand the rhyme or reason of it. The crack fiend and whore on the corner can produce like crazy, but here we are, decent, taxing paying people and we have to pay to put our stuff in a dish and create some life.

What world is this?

Coverage mumbo jumbo

Why can't they just put includes or excludes IVF in the coverage manual? Seriously, it would make my life so much easier than this legalese crap I'm reading.

The way I read it, it covers all procedures and diagnostic related to "involuntary infertility" which to me would include IVF. However, you never know how to take what these things say.

I've contacted member services...lets hope I hear from them soon (and they can actually give me a yes or no answer).

Hard road ahead

Well, we went to the RE today.

I've been spotting for a few days, but my ultrasound showed follicles but nothing dominant. Also, my lining is only at ten, which the doctor said was thin, so probably not AF either. He ordered me a prescription of Provera which I will pick up tomorrow. Also, we now know I definitely have PCOS, so yay for having that cleared up. But I don't start treatment because....

DH's count is too low for IUI, so there is no point in me going through the medication. The RE prescribed a higher dosage of Clomid for him, but in his professional opinion, the drugs will have little to no effect.



We are left with IVF w/ ICSI as our most viable option.


We are going to take a break for three months while we wait for the Clomid to most likely not work.